It sickens you, really.
But you'd never be able to say just what it is that pulls you into consciousness.
Because the insecurity eats at you more than anything.
You get a sudden reality check from it squeezing through onto the other side. Curious, you question how strange it is to see it emerge from one form into another. It takes a different shape and colour.
Like the weight of yourself in a body of water coming up into something bright and new.