The moment will arrive with applause

There’s somethin’ about leavin’ the big city that gets your juices flowin’
But the thought of fleeing pulls at you.

What if something terrible happens?
What if you find something better?

S’pose you catch yourself asking those questions from time to time, despite the circumstances.
You’re insides are twisting with nerve and worry and excitement!

(Inspirational quotes suggest you gain confidence from doing things that frighten you)

This helps.

What keeps your blood at ease is the thought of finding yourself once more. You are no longer burdened with fillings up of your alone time, you no longer have to worry about catering to your employers (sort of), and you don’t have to worry about a bigger picture, a what if, or entertain the inevitable ‘is this it?’.

Because you are plunking yourself into adventure.

Tally-ho!

crippling self doubt

It sickens you, really.
But you'd never be able to say just what it is that pulls you into consciousness.
Because the insecurity eats at you more than anything.

You get a sudden reality check from it squeezing through onto the other side. Curious, you question how strange it is to see it emerge from one form into another. It takes a different shape and colour.
Like the weight of yourself in a body of water coming up into something bright and new.